Wednesday, November 26, 2014

"We're Junkies, Man, That's All We Are"

I'm in a pretty foul mood right now so forgive me in advance for any cuss words that may fly out.

Anthony had been in jail for ONE YEAR.  He got out last night and what was the first fucking thing he did?  Right.  One year of not using, but still the first thing he did was get high (heroin, coke and alcohol, probably some weed).

He came over to see Keven and me today and I have to tell you - for the first time ever I looked at him and found him unattractive.  He lost the babyface that made him so approachable.  He'd put on a ton of muscle and hasn't an ounce of fat.  He thinks he looks good.  His face was RED, like high blood pressure red and he looked mean.  If I didn't know him, I would not want to.

Then he lectured Keven and finally left.  My stance with Anthony has always been that I will be there for him 100% when he's clean.  So I'm bummed that he's out.   I wish he'd just go away.

He's such a manipulator.

And Keven, well he's using again, no surprise there.

Ugh.  I hate it.

Peace, Hope and Love, Barbara