I swear, I can't get back on this darn roller coaster! I saw "the look" Saturday, but then talked to him on the phone last night and he was so incredibly normal sounding. I am going to stop jumping to conclusions and wait for a real crisis before I react and make myself crazy with worry.
Thank you for all the comments. I still feel the care and concern and don't know what I'd do if I was alone in all this.
I'll share a bit more about my personal life: Many of you who've known me for years are aware that I am single and always hoping to meet the right guy for me. It's never happened. Somewhere in the back of my mind I've always had a feeling that instead of meeting someone new, someone from my past would re-emerge and we'd fall in love again and stay together forever. I even had a few hopefuls in mind of who that someone might be, all nice guys that I had nice relationships with.
But for me, nice was always boring, I always left. I had the typical "bad boy" syndrome that many of us women seem to fall into. But bad boys grow up, right? They change, they turn into nice guys. Let's hope that's the case in my situation.
I am currently seeing someone from my past as just friends, but it seems to be leading to more. He was my very first love, and it was a very intense relationship. So we find ourselves together again, not looking like the pretty boy and girl we were in our late teens/early 20's, but wiser, less selfish, much more mellow (like way mellow.....).
I'm going to discuss it with my therapist today and am nervous. That means I think there's something wrong with it. But I am following my heart this time and taking it slow. I am not the person I was back then and he isn't either.
Peace, Hope and Love,